things not to think about on the eve of 29 years

= i spend less than 6 hours a day in my large one bedroom apt
= i have shed all identities but one
= my mom had me (age 4) and my sister (age 8) when she was my age.
= my bathroom/kitchen/living room/clothing/hair/teeth need to be cleaned
= this could still be my reality in 8 years
= there were other options
= i can choose to be happy pretty much anywhere
= i don't quite understand what drives me but i know it is mostly based in the fear of regret.